i hate you sivakumar. you really did lead me on didnt you. its a bloody fuckin game to u innit. yeah i was fickle bt i did not have any fucking intention of leading you on. if it felt that way, it will have been due to my ficklemindedness and indecisiveness regarding this whole whirlwind of a relationship. i knew i loved u. this is bloody payback innit.


fuck, wts the diff btw u n the others? haha. if seyed lead me on, then what u did is worse than what he did. he treated me as a friend. bt you? argh... why the hell did i bloody meet u. i seriously hate u. thank you for fucking givin me the hopes and then asking me to wait and then decidin to get attached with chitra. i hope ure happy now. when i was bloody gonna move on, u had to bloody call me and ruin it for me. no guy has ever made me cry and you have done it more than any other guy will ever or can. argh... remember the 1st time u told me u aint like the rest of the hotel guys'. reality check darling, you are! and you are a big hypocrite for nt realisin it. u have just made me realized why issit that i never wanted a relationship... coz of arseholes like you. i never wanna hear frm you or see you ever in my life.

and for that friend of his who reads my blog. i seriously hope you dont go n tell him nemore of wtf is happening in my life coz its none of his business. if u wanna carry on reading, its ur wish n prerogative. if u wanna stop, aint no loss for me. bt he doesnt have the fucking right to noe ne shit abt me. im nt gonna privatise my blog or friendster profile coz of him coz its stupid and i really dont give a fuck whether he reads this and gets hurt oso. coz i will always remember this... a guy who really played me well. haha. now i feel like a fool. evrythng was a farce. argh.

this has juz ruined evrythng for me. perfect.