thngs to do.
1) Do chem 2211 assignment
2) work on lab reports
3) contact kak aud to gt her addy in melaka
4) meet azza n ice n anusha
5) meet ana n mizan n syamz
6) get a replacement date with deirdre
7) gt a gift for shankaran
8) go dn to nie to meet manoaj
9) pay back the date i owe manoaj
10) study!


n now the blog has another purpose to. it acts as my planner. haha. jeez

somehow it feels wrng to be slacking... dont have my new notes nor my assignment to do and i left my lab manual at home thus cant work on my lab report. vaguely remember the details.. n i am NOT gonna do more work related work. .. haha.... @ last, i have contact with ice bebe... miss u babe... those imf days, nyt shift... n the shifts together... my god, the stunts we pulled... the pakat-ing. the eating out together... the criticising 1 another's ass... haha...goin home afta 1am evry nyt during imf.... shiok sia.... gosh, i miss so many ppl... ice,azza,anusha,ana,hisyam,seyed...mizan n even reeq... wonder wt happened to tt fella....

n yes i have been dealt with prejudice.... n i will be dealing with it later... need to clear it today... the matter needs to be resolved... n im mega slpy today... wonder how im gonna nxt wk when evryday i have sch... monday to sat... sumhow i feel i noe.... n i have silver nitrate stains all over my hand n fingers n nails.... thinkin shld i jz go n gt a manicure....at least it wont be tt obvious... esp the nails... it looks like i have dirt under my nails... the only salvation is tt its maroonish- brownish... thus if u look closely at it, u will realize its a stain.. gross la.... yeah i thnk i shld jz go n gt a manicure... french manicure... keke... for fun...

the us market dropping is slightly scary coz another recession with growing costs in evrythng will juz plunge the whole world's economy into a mad rush... poverty will start increasing... n i dont uds why the govt is doing nth to address the growing costs... n yes, i still cant believe it that they are holding onto the 5 to 6% growth forecast... wth, if usa goes into a recession, evry1 will follow alng... n furthermore, we depend GREATLY on evry1... so it will be a snowball effect. n i wonder wt the govt is gonna do to help... getting fairprice to sell it cheap n dishing out some money evry yr for a period of 3 (or issit 5?) isnt gonna be much of a help really... proper planning is required... n i so love econs la... jz gts ur brain racing... twisting n turning... oh did i say, im slpy? haha... outz

ola, im exhausted... well i have the most self centered colleague on earth who refuses to help me to prepare the chemicals.... n the plan was to cover both lvls.. n he told me i will tell the hod that u dont wanna do the j2 stuffs... wtf... i asked twice, can i gt started... n he told me to conc on the j1s... fucker ar.... n nt only that, he complained abt me saying i do my schwork during work hrs... if there is no work to do, i do my sch work ar... arsehole... n b4 he left on monday last wk, can tell me to prepare the chemicals for this wk.... wtf... can tell me when i come in ryt? so yeah... rush thru this n tt... gosh, so much chemicals to prepare... im exhausted man... n i have absolutely no time to even sit dn albeit the 1 hr for lunch... yeah i noe its nt supposed to be evryday... bt if u have tons of chemicals to prepare, yeah... seriously im starting to hate the job coz of bad colleague... n to make matters worse, for the nxt 3 wks or so, he has no practicals....

n to make matters worse,the hod act can tell raihan to tell me to prioritize work over sch work... wtf.... its nt like i end up doing my work late wt... jz tt leave thng... i still clear my work up in time for the class... nt like i never end up preparing the chemicals for the class... wtf... well im considering quitting.... n seriously la, i miss working at ritz... haha... the work was damn slack... i cld study at work n they didnt say nethng.... i mean studying at work is a lil too much.. bt the job musnt make u tt exhausted ryt? im preparing 3 to 5 liters of up to 10 chemicals weekly.. sometimes, it increases.. sometimes it decreases.... nxt wk, its up to 15 chemicals..

it will be ok if i dont have sch bt i have sch oso.... jz considering whether its worth forsaking my health and grades for this.... coz i rarely have the time to study.... unless i study on sat n sunday... n then when do i go out? when do i unwind? if this carries on this way, i thnk i mite wanna quit.... yeah my work was damn slack before.... its nt tt i cant do it... its jz tt i need some help to do it... with none available....

i will fail calculus... yes... the paper was horrendous... seriously it was.... haiz... well... today starts chem 2221... lectures by the uwa lecturer... lab by dr chia... n its a tight 1st 2 wks... after which, it will be damn slack.... i hope so... meeting syamz later... after some time.... fnt seen tt fella after dec... the impromptu meeting....

d paper is tml. i have nt done proper studying.... im sooo gonna fail calculus. haha... n im still surviving... i thnk. 1 more day... after which, back to sumthng tt shld be hopefully easier to comprehend. biological and medicinal chemistry.... sumthng tt involves studying structures? i gt a strng feeling it does. structures are way better than calculus. oh well... notes are seeking me... au revoir.

im supposed to study calculus n yt i dont feel like it.... i wanna do sumthng yt i dunno wt is tt sumthng..... i am not looking forward to feb 5 coz usha is goin off.... the only company i have during those family gatherings.... perhaps its the time we spent during recess in sec 3 n 4.... i will miss her terribly.... bavani is still there bt usha n i were always closer. well i have nth to say... getting to know some guys.... nth interesting as of yt.... god, give me some inspiration... i need some... life feels oh so boring....

im hungry... like again.... wth... its like i am insatiable.n today's calculus class was the best... it was greek frm the beginning to end... woo hoo... after next friday, regardless of a pass or a fail, im gonna congratulate myself for making it thru... skippin 3 classes in total. nt so bad. frm all to 3... persevered... n somehow the word seems wrng... n im too lazy to go n check the spelling... my language has deteriorated terribly. okie.. im hungry... better go n eat sumthng... n gt fat... haiz.. oh, who cares?

love is the air... i have 2 primary sch frenz whom are married... wth... 1 frm sec sch.keke... yes v random. i thnk 4 frm poly whom are engaged... dunno how many frm the otehr 2 lvls. n of coz, my uni folks, no need to say... few are married. ways... yati, u told me u have nt heard any tamil songs before right... so lemme do the honors of being the 1st insane person to intro tamil songs to u... n this is my most fav song for the past 1 yr plus... i never tire of listenin it evryday... keke

n its aptly titled kathal vaithu or when i translate it, with love in this context. thus i guess the love is in the air beginnin.. no, nt in mine though... keke... n i was nt able to gt it frm imeem so im using youtube... which i hate....




ways the guy is my fav actor... keke....

n the lyrics with translations done by urs truly...=)

Kaathal vaithu,
kaathal vaithu kaathirunthen
(I waited with love)
Kaatril unthan kural mattum keatirunthen

(Heard you voice only in the wind? breeze?)
Sirithaai isai arinthen

( Knew music from ur laughter)
Nadanthaai dhisai arinthen

(knew directions when u walked)



or issit learnt?? keke...i find learnt sounding better in the translation but if i directly translate the word frm tamil, its knew or found out.


Kaathal enum kadalukkul naan vizhunthen

(Fell into an ocean known as love)
Karaiyinil vantha pinnum naan mithanthen

(I floated even when i came ashore)
Asainthaai anbey asainthen

(Lost myself in ur movements? dance?)
Azhagaai aiyo tholainthen
(lost myself in ur beauty)
Kaathal vaithu,
kaathal vaithu kaathirunthen
Kaatril unthan kural mattum keatirunthen
Asainthaan anbey asainthen
Azhagaai aiyo tholainthen

Devathai kathaiiii keattapothellaaaam,
nijam endrun ninaikkavillaiiiiii
(When i heard fairytales, never believed in them)
Neril unnaiyeyyy paatha pinbu naaaaan,
nambi vitten marukkavillaiiiiiii
(But after seeing you, i started believing in it without an argument)

Athikaalai vidivathellaaaam,
unnai paarkkum mayakkathilthaaaan
(Wake evry morning in the hope of seein you)
Anthi maalai maraivathellaaaam,
unnai paartha thirakkathilthaaaan
(Go to bed evry night in the happiness?? of seeing you)

k i dunno wts the meaning of tt word there... thirakkathilthan... no idea at all..

Kaathal vaithu,
kaathal vaithu kaathirunthen
Kaatril unthan kural mattum keatirunthen

Asainthaan anbey asainthen
Azhagaai aiyo tholainthen

Unnai kanda naaaazh ozhi vattam pol,
ullukkulley suzharuthadiiiiiiii
(The day i saw u, goes arnd in my head like a light)

there is a nicer way of putting this sentence bt its nt coming to me right now..

Un idathil naan pesiyathellaaaam,
uyirukkul ozhikkuthadiiiiiiiiiii
(Whatever i spoke to you is resounding or echoing in my life)

Kadalodu pesa vaithaaiiiiiii
(Made me speak with the sea)
Kadigaram veesa vaithaaiiii
(Made me throw clocks)
Mazhaiodu kuzhikka vaithaaiiiiii
(Made me bathe in the rain)
Veyil kuda rasikka vaithaaiiiiiiiiii
(Made me enjoy the sun too)

Kaathal vaithu,
kaathal vaithu kaathirunthen
Kaatril unthan kural mattum keatirunthen

Sirithaai isai arinthen
Nadanthaai dhisai arinthen

Kaathal enum kadalukkul naan vizhunthen
Karaiyinil vantha pinnum naan mithanthen

Asainthaai anbey asainthen
Azhagaai aiyo tholainthen
Asainthaai anbey asainthen
Azhagaai aiyo tholainthen


The end... n i aint a pro in all this aitez.. my 1st attempt.. im still trying working on my tamil.. i noe i can brush up better... aitez outz.

i have been going arnd telling ppl tt 2008 is gonna be the best yr in my 21 plus years existence on planet earth. okie it feels awkward for me to tell ppl im 22... no1 believes it oso... they think im 16... some people say my voice is equal to a 12 years old's... yeah wth.


ways my wkend jz proves it. a lil. met up with usha to go n donate blood... bt i was rejected as once again i have iron deficiency anemia... my hb is 9.4g/dl. better than my 8.5g/dl that i had when i was in sec 3. its mild or issit moderate... cant remember. i had 2 hrs of slp or so frm last night... so yeah... brain is a lil messed... voice is a lil sexy.... keke... n yeah i didnt have the mood to go for lessons when usha is gonna go to check out thngs for aussie... so skipped calculus... headed dn to bugis... met anita,went to gt the tix for usha.. she is flying off on the 6th of feb which is the same date im goin to kl... sian.. so looks like i cant send her off... anita is goin with her too... after which headed to magesh annae office, met the team... went to lunch with them... we had seafood... hung out with them till 6+... headed home n gt drenched in the rain...


then at 10, magesh annae picked me up... picked api n usha... headed to their crib.. .slept at 1, woke up at 2... n we headed to melaka... 1stly had supper where we met manoj annae,swathi( i dunno how to spell her name), karpagam akka,prakash annae n uncle raj. then all of us drove dn to melaka... speedin at speed of 180km/h... went to the temple... saw the priest... or rather the person whom had the powers. then when to melaka town for bfast... after which i was teased non-stop with manoj annae as my mum actually told me tt she doesnt mind me gettin to noe him n i had to gooo n ask anita. she remembered it and kept on torturing him... n me too... n when we returned home, we had mega fun with manoj annae driving coz he swerved in n out of lanes... usha n api spent their time shrieking their heads off n i laughing at them. then when magesh annae n manoj annae gt in2 the same car... it was the best... we speeded at max 210km/h... the car jz flew i tell u.. .it was the best thng on earth... the adrenaline rush was there when we swerved bt when the speed hit top notch, it was fu yooh... today was the best day ever... met more cousins, had mega fun... had 2.5 hrs of slp... n enjoyed myself tremendously... hopefully the rest of the yr is like this... i pray for tt... cheerz..=)

okie im insane... i like this song frm aaja nachle... which is seriously nt usually the type i will listen... bt there is something that i can say... sumthng very soothing in the song for me.. its might be the music, the hoarse,deep vocals.. dunno wt... ways puttin it here with the lyrics n translations...




O RE PIYA

o re piyaa haaye o re piyaa...
(O beloved...)

uRne lagaa kyon man baawlaa re
(Oh, why did my crazy soul begin to fly?)
aayaa kahaa.n se yah ho.nslaa re
(Oh, where did this courage come from?)
o re piyaa o re piyaa haaye
(O beloved...)

taanaa-baanaa taanaa-baanaa buntii hawaa haaye buntii hawaa
(The breeze teases and taunts me, oh, the breeze plays havoc with me.)
buu.nde.n bhii to aaye nahii.n baaz yahaa.n
(Even the raindrops won't shower here again.)
saazish me.n shaamil saaraa jahaa.n hai
(The whole world is part of the intrigue.)
har zarre zarre ki yah intezaar hai
(I never stop waiting.)

o re piyaa
(O beloved!)
o re piyaa haaye o re piyaa haaye
(O beloved...)
o re piyaa
(O beloved!)

ni re re re ga ga ga ma ma ma pa pa ma ga re sa sa re re sa ga ga re ma ma
ga pa pa ma dha dha pa ni ni sa sa pa pa sa ma pa dha ni sa ni re ni sa sa sa...
[Notes in Indian classical music.]

nazare.n bole.n duniyaa bole
(The glances are telling, the world is telling)
dil kii zabaan haaye dil kii zabaan
(the story of my heart, oh, the story of my heart.)
ishq maa.nge ishq chaahe koii tuufaan
(Love prays, love wishes for a hurricane.)
chalnaa aahiste ishq nayaa hai
(A new love slowly walks in.)
pahalaa yah waadaa ham ne kiyaa hai
(This is the first promise we gave.)

o re piyaa haaye o re piyaa haaye
(O beloved...)
o re piyaa piyaa
(O beloved, beloved.)
yah piyaa
(This beloved.)

na.nge pairo.n pe a.ngaro.n chaltii rahii haaye chaltii rahii
(You were stepping on burning charcoal barefoot, oh, you kept walking.)
lagtaa hai ke gairo.n me.n me.n paltii rahii haaye
(Oh, it seems that you were brought up among strangers.)
le chal wahaa.n jo mulk teraa hai
(Take me to your country.)
zaahil zamaanaa dushman meraa hai haaye
(Oh, the cruel world is my enemy.)

o re piyaa haaye o re piyaa haaye...
(O beloved...)


of coz all this was kopeked from http://www.bollywhat-forum.com/index.php?topic=22007.msg288449#msg288449... i am nt trained in hindi. keke.

still waiting for australia to get back. haiz. cant wait to see the whole thng. ways, work IS starting to pile up. the J1s are starting with QA... i thnk i am gonna be having nightmares for chemical preparation... coz it aint small quantities... large quantities are needed.awaiting their timetable. n of coz, meanwhile pray to god for the strength to cope with work n school... seriously i dont wanna screw up coz of work.


work is nt the least impt to me... a form of cash for me tts all.. its nt a job tt i envision being stuck for the rest of my life. infact, a yr is the most for me i thnk before i complain of boredom n a need for change. bt the relief is march, there wont be nethng for a wk, cny, there wont be nethng, may n june, there wont be much or nethng. n ways, QA will be for a term alone i thnk... or 2. thus... i thnk wont be that bad. neway positivity.. i can do this.. it will be tiring bt worth it. worse come to worse, if i cant cope.. quit the job n do a part time job. afterall, its all experience im getting... nt for a lifelong job now. im still young to be officially tied dn to a job.


ways.. calculus ends in 14 days. the day im looking forward to anxiously. n then onto chem 2221. the last chem module in yr 2 before its all bio. n im looking forward to it happily. woo hoo.. aitez outz!

A SOULFUL RELATIONSHIP

If you're not married yet, share this with a friend. If you are married, share it with your spouse or other married couples and reflect on it.

An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye."

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time his or her flaws, vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious. If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you.

You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two unique individual children of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other? Do you bring out the best in each other? Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare, and control? What do you bring to the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain? You can't take someone to the altar to alter him or her. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life", you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship!

Seeking status, sex, wealth, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship. What keeps a relationship strong?

Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of humour, sharing household tasks, some getaway time without business or children and daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note).

Leave a nice message on the voicemail or send a nice email. Sharing common goals and interests. Growth is important. Grow together, not away from each other, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure. Allow your mate to have outside interest. You can't always be together. Give each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment. Don't try to control one another. Learn each other's family situation. Respect his or her parents regardless. Don't put pressure on each other for material goods. Remember for richer or for poorer. If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace the passion.

The difference between 'United' and 'Untied' is where you put the 'i'.

*Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to give...Treat every moment as is if it's the last day, then you'll know how to treasure*

happy bday shida.... im damn cold in this lab... when i wear sumthng tts made outta thick material, it has to be hot n when i wear sumthng tts thin, it has to be mega cold.... outta sudden, raja msged me online to wish me happy new yr... haha... kinda unexpected. keke. ways doin the research abt uwa... hmm seems interesting. hopefully i can do honors too... n hopefully i gotta move there in july or august... whenever the sch term stars. over at work, im doin 2 lvls. so tt i learn. well nobody has to know im eagerly counting dn on moving to australia for a yr. new yr was great... danced like nobody's biz... danced n danced... laugh... was fun dancing... keke


i wonder will i fall in love this yr.. like last yr... n go thru all that funny emotions that i never had before. was the most interesting feelings ever on earth. hard to describe bt its euphoric yt painful. its a feeling that those whom are in love will know... keke... n im glad i experienced it last yr... gosh sounds so weird calling 2007 last yr bt it is.