its my mum's bday. she turns 46. in 2012, my mum turns 50, i will be 26, my sis sweet 16. omg. n n, 40k for social escorts for 6 hrs durin the f1 thng... n i fit in the criteria okie.... gd fly backgrnd wid uni education... k, i have yet to get it bt im goin thru it bt 40k for 6 hrs. crap, tts like 3 yrs of workin my arse off... wtf

tchers are bein encouraged to do their degree... interestin... pri sch tchers who require a diploma now needs a degree.. n wt else other than the f1? the world is goin topsy turvy.... msia has its political unrest. japan has a new premier. china has its melamine case. india has its trade minister apologizin for the death of a mgr.obama jz said washington is gonna be bust and not wall st alone. n talks of pumpin 700 mil into the economy.sadness... storms there n here. such unrest in the world. oh well tts all for this meaningless post

all im askin for is peace... PEACE... will i ever come home to a place where there is no screamin.. about money and petty stuffs... money isnt evrythng. when ure married, there is no ure money, my money. its our money. in the end, u still get sumthng wt. wts wrng with u? haiz. when will u uds it? why issit tt a 22 yr old can uds it bt a 46 yr old cant? money isnt evrythng wt. afterall, u aint spending for a 3rd party. its for ur kids. its for ur family. haiz. its upsetting.

i guess now i noe why i dont wanna ever get married. i rather be lonely than be upset. haiz. i dunno when this neverending war ever ends. till 1 of em dies or moves out. argh...

*in search of peace n happiness*

i just wish that this was all a dream. that the next day i will wake up and it will all be alright.


nothing sucks more than being stuck in between. nothing sucks more when i know that a nightmare is starting to unfold itself right in front of my eyes and i cant stop it. nothing hurts more than knowing i cant shield my 2 siblings. nothing sucks more than the fear of your future being pulled away from you and thrown to the winds.


god, i beseech you to give me the strength n money. and please dont take away my only love. seriously, if i had to lose what i have now to something like money, please just kill me. i rather die than not being able to do what i love. and the other thing i ask, my siblings to be unaffected. i will not allow them to be affected. their life shld go on like normal. i want it to.


why must i be born as the eldest? why must i be always the worrier? it sucks havin to worry. its days like these i wish i can have a hug and a shoulder. nothing calms u better than tt 2....

woah... loong.... well grandma's 70th bday is over... lotsa thng has happened. 3 more mths to dec....honestly cant wait for the yr to end. cant wait for 2010. n i cant wait for the future to unfold. its unfolding. im growin older and gonna have my 3rd nephew or niece... i hope its niece... oh well... outta here. au revoir.