so im 24 this yr. holy god, close to quarter of a century. never have i imagined being this old. the working world.n as i knew since a kid, im a goddamn workaholic. i love being swamped at work.somehow having some projects has made me happy. made me feel involved. im gonna be done with the degree this november. n then it gets me thinking, wts next.

i feel uncomfortable not knowing wts next. i have always planned my life. with wt i want. n suddenly im drawing a blank. i know time will tell, bt time is drawing nearer. no answers yt.


im thnkin abt the future. the career path that will keep me happy. im some1 whom is easily bored. so i need changes,tons of em. n im thnkin once again, did i make a mistake by joining life sciences?
will i be happy if i decided to do psychology? i always loved kids. n i feel like volunteering in some children's home. im considering researchin on working with abused kids. its never the same with them. or should i remain in customer service? so many qs to ponder over.

right so 2009 ended and 2010 came. with new interests.my current fav, twilight. funny how a book can make me believe in things i have banished frm my memory. how it is to love. how it is to hurt. how it is to lose some1. im envious of her. of coz, every girl loves cullen n wants him. i want sum1 as gd as him.

somehow i thnk bella is like me. i dunno why. bt the more i read, the more i see her in me. just that im nt so clumsy. haha... some idol worshipping. i have got used to this loneliness, this silence when im at home. allowin me to lose myself in my thoughts. if only, if only.