i changed my fb status out of boredom... hisyam n i arent really in a relationship... its jz outta fun... bt i thnk i went a lil too far.. maybe some1 is hurt by it and im feeling guilty... all i noe is i cant be in another relationship... i cannot survive thru another 1... it still hurts at times... its been 2 yrs.. bt it hurts... it will always hurt... i dont believe in love or relationships... once upon a time, i did.. now, no more.... im jz goin wid d flow... if im meant to be with sum1, i will.. if nt, i have a career to work on... lotsa thngs i wanna study.... tts how i live now... will live... im emoin today.. badly.... haiz.

this is all for gd i hope... i feel like screamin at my dad n my sister... such self centeredness... such silliness.. this is the bloody time to put away all of tt... i wonder how are we gonna cope, how am i gonna cope? looks like i might have to quit my job... unless i get rich and can afford to have a maid. or strike a lottery. god, why did u have to do this? haiz... im so dejected. im goin crazy... i want this to be a nightmare... wake up n see evrythng is fine... mum nt havin cancer.. why god? why?