oct 1... 2 mths since it ended and 2 more mths to the end of the yr too... n i turn 22 nxt yr... *gasps* today oso is back to school.... start of sem 2.... with dr chia just like how sem 1 begun. err newae was chattin with din yest evening abt songs and then yeah we both agree tt hey there delilah is a sweet song... haha.. err well look @ d lyrics...


Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice
it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to

Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me


talk abt love and the promise of it...

another argument, another day... n early in d day itself... there goes my sunday outta window... they have both came to the conclusion that im incompetent... compared to who else? bavani and usha... haha... seems an irony when their mother adores me. and thnks im competent and tells them see shankeri is working and studying and still doing stuffs at home... haha...


well when i heard the line, i told them go and adopt her ar.... no prob with me... no surname only what... n of coz la start all their crap... why cant u just be like her and listen to what we say n do thngs... why can she do it and u cant... err wteva la... sorrie ar, since when i listen to u all to bloody listen now? i do things my way... and ways, u guys have put urself dn as the most calculative parents on earth with ur reply on why u guys didnt send me overseas to study... usha is goin in feb.... so yeap... congratulations... n im supposed to depend on u guys to pay my sch fees? err ryt... i thnk i will have to end up droppin out of sch instead!

i want to be a full time undergraduate. okie... yeah im still considered 1 bt nth beats studyin full time... bein 6 mths in NUS for the internship actually made me realize there ARE tons of campus activites... which is damn fun la... well the stress level will be there too... bt hell the stress is easily coped too... afterall, full time student is in my opinion too damn easy... i mean how hard issit to study and pass?bein in the top is hard bt passin and scrapin thru is too easy... haiz....

i miss meetin guys and new ppl my age... i mean poly life is pretty much similar to an undergraduate life jz differin by the cert and level of complexity n I DIGGED POLY LIFE. seriously regret screwin that sem up in poly... ARGH!!! haiz... can i just get some1 to sponsor me to do this degree in UWA itself? tt 1 is more fun... no parents, no naggin... independence full force... woo hoo! haiz...


was listenin to perfect 10...dan n young had this poll thng goin on for infidelity... married couple, wife had too much drink... ended up kissin a colleague which of coz will lead to sex... came home, confessed to husband and husband now in dilemma... amongst the ppl polled... no statistics given of population, 65% of them felt that they should head to divorce. considering a population of nearly 4 million ppl, i will say the sample size for this poll will have been arnd 100 perhaps. since it was run for 30 mins. thus the sample size is kinda too small i thnk... and its interestin coz 65% is a pretty alright percentage and 987 is usually for youths... bt yeah its interestin... perhaps there is such a thng as loyalty in some relationships i guess... bt yeah, once again sample size too small to make a fair conclusion and furthermore the respondents are listeners of the radio station thus biasness is there too...

what's my response to this? hmm i will head to the divorce too.. i agree we arent perfect and all.. and forgivin is gd etc etc... bt in my circumstances, i know damn well no matter how drunk i am, i will not sleep with some other guy unless i was raped. it wont be consensual on my side thus i expect that of my partner too. so yeap. interestin poll. oh well... that will be all... and i didnt noe i gt do stats... haha...

A long time ago,
we used to be friends
But I haven't thought of you lately at all
If ever again,
a greeting I send to you,
Short and sweet to the soul is all I intend.


Come on now, honey,
Bring it on, bring it on, yeah.
Just remember me
when you're good to go
Come on now, sugar,
Bring it on, bring it on, yeah.
Just remember me when.


We used to be friends a long time ago.
We used to be friends a long time ago.
We used to be friends a long time ago.
We used to be friends.

lets see, some smartarse neighbor of mine whom is apparently feeling nostalgic of the gd old days of kampong lifestyle has gt a hen in the neighborhood which made a din this mornin... and made me swear... the 1st word i uttered in the morning was whatthefuck... talk abt a bad start. and yeah i was gonna wring the hen's neck if i gt it... it isnt a rooster coz this was shrill... its diff when it comes to the rooster...

and it had to bloody rain of all days... my pants are soaked... once again... on cue... wtthefuck! alright... i already laughed in d morn like no1's biz...


Mum: Does Aruna still go to school in the van?
Gaya: He uses an umbrella

cock la... my god... i just cracked hearin it... and i guess she got irritated i was laughin like a crazy idiot in d morn... bt wth... he uses an umbrella? harry potter konon? haha... and i was nearly knocked dn by a car...if it was the old me, i wld have pointed both my middle fingers at him... bt unfortunately, i have to drop such immature acts... god, those ppl shld noe... i choose to die when i want to die... u dont bloody choose it for me..


yest while havin dinner, i saw this beetle thngie scurryin on d flr... its some irritatin insect tt makes this din while flyin abt scaring both the chickens in my hse... bein bored, i picked it up and placed it on my brother's knee... whose face automatically registered panic and usin his hand he brushed it off and moved away... with me laughin like an idiot... and my mum goin, dei, its just an insect... oh well.. i was bored la... the irritatin pest was talkin away... so yeah.. and of coz, she screamed when i placed the insect on his knee and cld ask me how can u touch it... wth is so scary abt an insect? im only scared of cockroaches n icky abt touchin lizards... others im cool...oh well tts all.. haiz... now its time to walk.. i want chocolate.. badly...

today is the mother's bday... truthfully, i dont care. havent gt nethng to update coz there is nth impt... trivial stuffs... they are havin a steamboat.... haha... n tts my fav.... some form of pacification? i doubt so.... situations are such that im spoken to only when necessary. which is cool with me. i rather its this way. stay out of my hair and affairs. this is the lifestyle i want. if i didnt go off route when i was in my teens, bein an adult now, i believe i have the maturity to make wise choices. well tt be all...

yest, went out with d mugchicks n pugchicks... had fun talkin with faisal n a lil to faris. n i agree with faisal... bein with sum 1 older than u for a girl is better than bein with some1 ure age. hmm... alrytz... happened to read this blog of some1 i dunno... bt i can view myself in her shoes... if i dont choose the right guy or the guy my parents choose and i happen to jz end it off...


yeap def the blame will be thrown at me... comfortin words and solace is never something i can seek in this hse. haha... situation btw my dad n me is pretty much dependent on the mother... whom im sure hates my guts. imagine hearin the words 'because of u, both of us always argue'. ouch... im sorrie ar bt ur wife hates me... i cant do much... i can only try the best to stay out of ur hair. haha... sometimes i seriously wonder is she really my birth mother? am i an adopted kid or am i some relatives' daughter and they gave me to my parents and since it leads to confusion, they dont wanna tell me.


haha... my aunt treats me 100% better than she does la. they like bavani... n im sure now both of them are wishin that she was their daughter instead of me. i was damn surprised n hurt when my dad went if only u cld be a bit like bavani... the last person whom i expected to do that comparison... oh well... yeap she is the angel.. im d hopeless devil... haiz... gimme a reason on why i have to consider the family? just cause they have been givin me education,clothes, food and a shelter and a surname for all these time? i thnk i have done wt i can do... get them a gd name outside... they can go n talk to ppl outside and im sure u will hear them say a gd child. afterall the parents upbringal moulds ur character... ppl find me responsible, civics minded,smart,fillial...haha... so this is what fillial piety pays...


remind me never to consider the family nemore... evrythng i do, i have to thnk twice coz im a girl and an indian... n i have to fuckin worry abt some sort of family name... call me observant la, bt u go n blow it amongst ur own family with ur own big mouth... did i go and tell them abt siva? nopez... did i go n tell them abt my job n school? nopez... did i go n complain to them that u guys refuse to send me to study? nopez... i just told them im preparin the money myself to pay... i cant do nethng if ur mother scolds u for makin me sit @ home n do hsehold chores and workin in ritz carlton... u guys cldnt bloody wait for me to go n work wt... did i have a choice? n school, i didnt say i dont wanna go n study wt... u guys told me to arrange the money myself... how d fuck m i supposed to fuckin gt close to 200k? bank loans? when i dont work n i dont have a guarantor... of coz i need time... evry single fuckin time, i have to do things thnkin abt the stupid family name n the siblings... tell me 1 time i can do sumthng coz i want to... zilch... i cant hang out with nt ppl coz hey 'they arent smart as u'.. i cant hang with mly or muslim ppl coz ure afraid i will convert to 1...


even the guy i wanna be with, its like im committin some major sin... my fuckin life is controlled by these stupid stuffs and all coz im a girl... haha... fuck... i hate it... and i hate the both of u... i wish u werent my parents... i never thought this way... bt now i do... i wish u both arent my parents... i rather be born in a hse where i dont gt all these expensive gifts bt had parents who loved me n accepted me for what i am and are some1 i can turn to. evrythng i do, i can count on my friends, never u guys... so tell me what think abt the family? do u spare a thought abt me? do u see the more u guys push me, the more i move further? ure this close to losin me... too close...