hmm... im considering taking taekwondo classes to occupy my sundays. bani is taking her class there too.. so doesnt sound like i will be lonely... but they have been doing it for some time... so yeah... consider consider. bt most prob i thnk i will be joinin. i thnk. gonna run it thru with the momster. if she freaks or she says okie. hate maths la. forcing myself to do it. haiz sianz. jan 18, im waiting for u eagerly like a bride awaits for her marriage day. and for a girl who had unprotected sex awaiting for the period which appears to be late. keke... i noe... such wrng comparisons. keke.. oh well. this are the only 2 which shot out pretty randomly. heh. outz.

complex numbers just plain suck la. haiz. watched enchanted today. was okie... abt love and stuff like those. funny la. haha. such complicated stuffs. dont wish to thnk abt it... haiz calculus sucks the most. shld have applied for the exemption. stupid me. wanted to take it... n now hating it and forcing myself to take it.. cld have jz taken physiology of the body so later on i can take the yr 3 modules when the 6 mths breaks come.. or clear the driving.sian, bad planning on my part. oh well...


happened to meet an old primary sch fren. whom is gonna complete her degree nxt june... mite meet her soon... hopefully.. oh well.. ciaoz.

i have officially resumed as the advicer for my mates. n im glad they are getting to know girls. n im glad i can help them the best being a 1) girl, 2) a close fren for yrs. its funny ar... how very easily i uds these guys. tts why i easily gt close to them.like wt shida told me... i will always be friends material and nth more. haha, i rather be friends with them... like wt i tell ppl... why fall in love, then break up or gt married. then a yr or several yrs later, decide u guys cant be with 1 another, then divorce... being stupid kan... waste time, waste money, gt urself stressed n confused n hurt. for wt fuck? rather u be single, getta noe alot of ppl, have alot of contacts and be happy. period.


brother is otw home... kinda relieved and glad that nth bad happened. was a lil worried at the back of my head which i kinda shrugged off. tgif. another end to the wk of dec. another 3 more wks or so to xmas n 4 wks to ny... cheerz.

well as i always feel, maths sucks... yest he said a term which sounded like courtesan to me. wth. tml is friday. the brother is back! yippee... n end of 1st wk of dec... seriously why do life scientist and chemists need to noe abt real number and complex numbers and differentiation and intergration. logarithms, we have a purpose... exponential, yes we do.. bt differentiation.. wth... the only differentiation im interested in is stem cells differentiation... i dont give a damn abt dy/dx or sin x or x cos x. jeez. i so detest maths. n sadly, no cute bus driver. sianz.


basically im eagerly countin dn to the end of yr and jan 16 in eager for the end of calculus. for me to do chemistry. then in march, bioinformatics... perl, and BLAST and databases.. all the it stuffs that i have some knowledge in due to the internship. dunno whether we will be taught programming.. which suddenly i feel like learning.. for fun. after which stuffs which i dig like genetics and molecular biology... background knowledge all there. so shld be okie.. jz revising the theory n all... nth that tough i think. or concept that i might be unfamiliar.. links shld be there. actually, i cant wait for immunity. coz its interesting. and physiology. though i still hate schooling in the evening,its better than not schooling at all...

oh n the world is too small la... nadia knows saiful... saiful is frm lpd in ritz... nice how the world is sooo small.. n that i always have some link there or here back in ritz. aitez. tts all.. back to full time slackin. cheerz.

i just wanna dance with you...=)


i saw stars for the 1st time in singapore... nt 1 or 2... bt 4 or 5... which is something for me... coz i rarely see stars here... the last i saw a splendid constellation was when i was 15... nz... mervyn, stuart, elaine n myself juz sat on a bench gazing at the stars... talking abt random stuffs.


and i still wanna dance with you.... =) happiest period in my life... hopefully by god's grace, it will remain this way. and 2008 will be the best yr. no, its nt a guy..... its jz somesort of my old carefreeness and optimism... i miss being that way. n im glad im back to the old days. welcome back to earth shankeri. =)

i should really be studying now.bt seriously i dont feel like studying. maths that is. its like dragging a sportsman to a play... this doesnt include ppl like timothy tan or magesh whom enjoys both side of the world. these men as i claim are the cultured,refined gentlemen. ppl whom i shld be interested in as per shahdon. to fit the so called cultured side of me. jz coz i enjoy the performing art and just coz i use words that are of a higher standard than the others doesnt make me cultured. i swear profusely. that is definitely not cultured... coz afterall, a lady aint supposed to swear right? that's a very narrow minded and sexist ideology i believe.


i miss the performing arts. as in being part of a production. the euphoria on d-day. and on final clap... nth beats it... okie... maybe the euphoria of being in love might. which is kinda played down when u get into this big bombastic argument which just seems so stupid to have occured in the 1st place. and all the anger and sadness u feel. bt yes the euphoria of being in love. i kinda do miss it. its a feeling that i have not been able to replicate. its like a wham of mega happiness slammed onto you. i guess love is love and hanging out with close buddies is plain lepakin as i lovingly call it. which is what my brother is gonna do in bintan. the lucky fella. whom apparently thinks i shld have went onto a jc instead of a poly. truthfully, i wont give up my experiences for nethng. it has made me wt i am now. i believe i have went thru the experiences of maturing.

i noe its too early to make new yr resolutions. bt the resolution that i have made is to drop that ego of mine when showing emotions associated with love and care and concern. i have a hard time voicing out my concern for ppl i love coz apparently some sort of weird thinking in me deems such projection of emotions as a weakness or dependency on them. will i be devastated if nethng happens to them? yes i will be... truly, i will plunge into a form of depression. its this so called emotions that i wanna block out. tt i will be alright without them. which apparently i am not gonna be. if nethng happens to my parents, i thnk it wont be that severe.


bt when it comes to ppl like usha or my brother... yes, i will bawl for days... i grew up with them... i love them more than nethng in this world. i dont feel this way for nebody else except for these two.. nt even my own sis. usha is the sister of mine who means tons to me. shankaran is the irritating brother whom i hated when i was young bt grew to love over the yrs. his so called funny ways of protecting me. he thinks i dunno bt i noe he has done his fair share of telling those unwanted admirers of mine to stay away frm me. haha. cute yt sweet. well as i always say, im blessed with a great family and great friends. thank you all for everything. and if i have hurt you in any way which i am damn sure i have with my bluntness, i am sincerely sorry. now if i can figure out putting dn my pride and ego to apologize to my parents for the mental stress and torture i gave them this yr, it will be a perfect end to this yr. n im awaiting for that end. which i am damn sure i can do. cheerz.

december is here. hmm... see all the chocolates and turkeys being sold. saw this cb pamphlet and they have this cake with toblerone in it... heh. ryt... im home alone. no parents, with a test to study for. sianz. oh well... studies come 1st. n i heard sumthng tt kinda did make me surprised as well as awed. have a classmate whom is 24 and her husband is more than 10 yrs older than her. currently she is pregnant with her 1st child. surprised coz its more than 10 yrs. and awed coz its a huge gap. wonder how they got together... bt cool. haha. aitez. back to calmaeth and studyin.