ages since i updated... september is ending.... october is here... before i know it, its 2010... =)

the year i was looking forward to since 2007.. that bachelor's degree which i want... now it seems as the near seems to be around the corner, god has to make me screw up.. i failed my 1st science subject ever since primary school... chem 3305, the wrath of me is on u! because of u, i will have to graduate in 2011! for 1 stupid subject! im praying for a miracle... bt i know lady luck isnt shining on me....

other than tt, my future at work doesnt seem to be shining well too... seem to be having some problems too.... but hey, im not letting it bring me down.. hell no! i will smile and take it as it comes... afterall life isnt a box of chocolate.. its a bed of roses... there are the beautiful flowers and the ugly thorns.... oh well....

gossip girl is making me envious... they are starting off with college... orientations, dorms, meeting new friends. an experience that has eluded me... an experience i have been wanting since 13.... the chance to taste freedom with no parents breathing down my back... * wistful smile*

and i am envious of the relationship btw chuck and blair... sometimes it feels gd to have some1 whom just understands you fully... and when tt person is with u, u feel everthing is fine and will be fine... oh well, envious of that love they have, though fictional... its nt easy to have that understanding... and damn, i want that... badly....