i just wish that this was all a dream. that the next day i will wake up and it will all be alright.


nothing sucks more than being stuck in between. nothing sucks more when i know that a nightmare is starting to unfold itself right in front of my eyes and i cant stop it. nothing hurts more than knowing i cant shield my 2 siblings. nothing sucks more than the fear of your future being pulled away from you and thrown to the winds.


god, i beseech you to give me the strength n money. and please dont take away my only love. seriously, if i had to lose what i have now to something like money, please just kill me. i rather die than not being able to do what i love. and the other thing i ask, my siblings to be unaffected. i will not allow them to be affected. their life shld go on like normal. i want it to.


why must i be born as the eldest? why must i be always the worrier? it sucks havin to worry. its days like these i wish i can have a hug and a shoulder. nothing calms u better than tt 2....