my nephew. sashan jeremiah. heh. cutest thng for me now. hehe. he is a hyperactive boy who hates to sit dn quietly. thnk gotta do with the gemini thng. heh. yest was nice... surprised i had duit diwali since im workin n all... bt hey. im still a kid okie. haha. hmm didnt see manshya baby though. n damn im old. haha.. gt nephew oreadi sia... im an aunt. wth. n this magesh annae says i can gt married since i love babies as i was carryin this boy arnd the hse... cute wt... n nice wt babies. i love babies bt tt doesnt mean i am ready to have 1 on my own... too much work n responsibility. its jz the so called girly side kickin in. oh n check out feez's socks.

nice ryt... hehe... found it mega cute lor.b n lastly my fav fotos for yest.

this is of coz feez n me. heh. behind is my brother. notice the color difference. its our pun btw us. this is my brother bt we dont have the same color. evil bt we use tt line since young.

some of the cuzzies... from left: geetha, anita or rajini akka,usha,me n bani... she looks like amara attai.. perhaps its coz of the saree...dunno why those who are arnd our age like the idea of sarees. i only volunteered to tie for anita's wedding. coz of amara attai. tts all. heh n oh yeah mukhtar annae came over. i last saw him when i was 14 or 16. now im 21 n he is 26. keke. he taught us the many ways of entertainin ourselves with those sparklers n of coz they were dangerous ways too. outz.

heh. guess the love is there. or else i wont have gt wt i wanted yest. no qs asked. jz a okie come. heh. i love baking. the whiskin of em together... foldin in...mixing... pourin it all in n baking... nt like cookin... so troublesome, gotta cut, chop,grind,stir etc etc...so much work. heh. aitez outz.

shankaran is in love or is attached. heh.signs are soooo obvious. heh. the 18 yr old thng to gt attached. see tons of it yr in n out. haha. shiok to wake up damn late. then jz bum at home. never did it after i started workin. heh. hmm... i still fnt bought baju deepavali. muz go buy. like i gt so much time oso. a day more. well tml after work, hit tm i guess... shld have sumthng i can find gd. worse come to worse, after which go to pp or bugis. bt im damn sure i can gt sumthng in tm. n knowin me, i wont give a damn abt the price... like means muz have. oh well. outz.

chitty chitty bang bang jz rocked. the set was beautiful. the car was cool. the kids were damn gd. the dancers n the music. excellent. worth the moolah.... loved the songs which gt u tappin alng... rufi was laughin tons. i had a nice day yest.. cemetary was fun to me too... i know that sounds morbid. bt i had a nice time talkin to my brother and juz watchin ppl. yeah i noe.. of all the places, cemetary. saw how some graves or tombs were in derelict. some were well kept. n ryt next to grandpa's is this guy by the name of mahen whom apparently was frm ritz and interestingly he shares the same date of birth as my grandpa. haha. wherever i go, ritz carlton is there to haunt me. interestin.


and in the night, i just walked back home in the rain... ppl were running n gettin shelter... i walked in the rain.. cldnt be bothered... it was so nice to gt wet.the splattering of a rain drop on u... on ur face... ahhh... nth beats it... the lightnin in the sky. yeah i have a foolhardy wish to die. heh. and i seem to be gettin hooked to ride it by jay sean. heh. nice. n he is hawt. haiz. gimme a guy like tt and hey he will be my no 1 priority. heh.

morning... woke up at 5+ on a sunday morning... a 1st after some time. went to the cemetery to go visit my grandpa's tomb. miss him. bt too overcrowded. devi akka, kumar maamaa,rajini akka, mages annae,me,gaya,naviin n nevain,sham n pretti were all the grandkids there. n add on the adults. nearly 20 ppl. in 1 small area. so yeah. was there arnd 6.45am... washed his tomb... then yeah went with my uncle to his dad's tomb which oso makes him my grandpa. then went to rajini akka's uncle's tomb so makes it my uncle. nenek and granduncle. so yeah... n today the place was packed. so many ppl. some shit abt the 5th day or wt... still dont uds it... wont uds the concept la. its jz not logical to me. like as if other days, the offerings wont be accepted like tt.


saw some prayer thngie goin on... n sum idiots dancin... typical tamil ppl behavior. somethng abt a god for the cemetery or wt... another uncle said it is an evil spirit. entah. dont wish to analyse it too... interestin though... so many tamil ppl...n yeah, my family is the noisiest and the biggest la. n oh yeah assorted color. heh. nice to stare at. oh yeah.. i fnt studied yt... die. aitez outz.

idiot of brother poked me... idiot. jz coz i guessed his gf's name n told anita... alryt... done with the damned report. sian. cldnt do it to my satisfaction. so i aint tt happy with it. bt i dont have the time. still have the quiz to study for. procrastinatin coz i have tons of free time. haiz. hate it. i jz never learn. n the quiz is on monday ar.n i thnk i have done like a few slides. its chiongin frm sat to monday. sian. n i still want to bake more..=) oh n anita wants me,surin,geetha n shankaran to go clubbin with her. she wants usha too.. hehe. now how interestin is tt. nnnnn.... syamz n seyed, terima kasih for evrythng. kesian u 2 for standin my mood swings. sorrie la babe. my curse to be born as a girl.

heh. been hearin the kannai vittu kan song since last night. gettin too addicted to tt song... heard it when i went dn to tekka.. n sumhow it reminds me of this english song bt i cant seem to gt the bloody name ar. irritatin. ways the lyrics are nice.. n im gonna have it saved here so tt i can see it when i look thru all this. n yes with the exception of seyed and me and my cuzzins, no1 is gonna uds this. yes, its my trial of bein a tamil girl. i mean appreciatin the songs n movie la.. n nt bein critical of it. tryin my hardest ar. still cant stand the thnkin though. hehe.


kannai vittu kan imaigal vidai kettaal
kanngal nanaiyathaa?
ennai vittu un ninaive nee kettaal
ullam udaiyatho?

etho etho enthan
idhayathai ahluthiyathe
atho atho enthan
uyiraiyum koluthiyathe

entha oru inimaiyum
ennaku indru kandathilai
ennum enna piddivatham?
unnai vittu thaana thaani
pathai ondru ennagu illai
ennidathil en kobam?

pothumadi intha thollai
en manathu thaangavillai
ennum enna vin mounam

and its a repetition of these. the direct translation will be sumthng like this and my tamil isnt perfect ar. i fnt done all this shit for ages.


If the eye leaves the eyelids and ask it questions, wont the eye gt wet?

If u ask the memories of u frm me, wont my heart break?

Something has pressed my heart


and that something has burned my life


I have never seen any happiness in my life before you, so why this obstinacy?


I dont have a path without you so why this anger?


cant take this pain anymore, why this unnecessary silence?

and yeah... this is it.. tried my best. hehe.. nt so bad. my tamil is still there. aitez out.

1st nov... ooo n im amazed at my lack of discipline. the time taken to write this entry should be the time taken to clear the report. bt unfortunately the brain is dead. im having another major headache juz like yest n to make matters worse. somehow i started sneezing in the evening thus leadin to a flu like syndrome.. of all the time to be catchin 1, when i have a major report due tml... and looks like i have to cancel goin out tml evening the way its goin since im unable to finish it.

had a weird fone call today... dunno whom it is... bt its weird to have calls where ppl dont say a word... call and dont say a word wtever for? this is the 2nd time in a yr gt this type of a call. weird ppl. okie... i cant take it nemore... head is really hurtin a bitch. n the respi system is fucked. wtf. screwin me up when i have a fuckin major deadline to meet. cibaidelic luck. woot. and have i invented a new word or wt? =)